Goodbye 1482 S. Robertson, End of chapter

Good bye 1482 S. Robertson blvd. Today marks the end of this chapter of my life. It was a short chapter, no doubt. Only 10 months after coming back, this new business journey ends today. Moving out marks more than just a change in physical location. This chapter concludes a lot of things:

1. First internet business closure - Moving out marks clearly the end of my journey trying to make weddingism into a huge success. And while it may be easy to see it as a failure, in fact, a lot of great lessons were learned by the whole process. I was able to start a new business with my friends. I was able to test out new things, and learned a lot of valuable lessons about partnerships, sharing of profits, product sourcing, and most important, building a team. I have overcome my fear of starting a business. In fact, I now feel ready to take on a new aspect of my life. I am no longer afraid of starting my OWN business even. I think I've really learned to become more independent. This carries on not only in my business partnerships, but also in my personal relationships.

2. Love - The lessons from a long distance relationship have freed me from the obsessive necessity of the other person. I found myself all these years constantly thinking of her name, as some mantra that when repeated would bring peace. Except for me, it would bring me an obsessive desire. It would cause me a lot of pain when that desire was not satisfied. Whenever I would reach out to her and get "shot down" by her "work" or her "bosses" or her "friends." To say the truth, it drove me a bit crazy. Eating away at me. I am no longer afraid. I've overcome my necessity. I don't 'need" anyone. I want to be with her because I love her, but I don't need to be with her. In a way, this chapter could be aptly titled "liberation." I've freed myself from the grasps of China, from the grasps of my obsession. From the grasps of my laziness. From the grasps of those obstacles that get in the way along the pursuit of our dreams.

I have started martial arts again. Something that has always been such a deep part of me and had stopped when I met her. I am now practicing more and more. I'm also waking up early. I'm not afraid to put in the work that's needed. My end goal isn't to allow me to become lazy. It's to give me a greater and better future. I am not afraid of work for work's sake! I'm also free from financial troubles. While I'm still in debt, i've come to terms with my financial problems. I am no ready to face them and overcome them. I'm ready to find a new source of income.


most important... I'm fully free to my journey for spiritual fulfillment. I've started my journey to find the Way and have great teachers by my side...

There is still hope.